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Using what we already have

There are a couple of stone foundations and chimneys at Cedar Cross – remnants of the lives lived here in years past.

These structures were built using a resource of the land that occurs in abundance here – granite.

When an artist snatches the tail of her muse leading her toward a new medium, look out. There are entire commercial industries built around selling art supplies and teaching craft lessons and so on and so forth. And thank goodness for that, for the nurturing of creativity in folks however it shows up for them. I’m all for it.

But in my case, in this moment, less is more. I’ve lost most of my income for now because of this pandemic, so in my creative endeavors of late, I’m committed to working with what I already have, using what I already have, and not spending money if I can help it.

So THANK GOODNESS there is no end to the supply of rocks at Cedar Cross!

When this land was farmed, rocks were piled up out of the way of the plow. In the woods I can find piles here and there, lots of them. My understanding of the geology is that stone outcroppings tend to run northwest to southeast. That helps me know where to look. And John is helpful with directing me to outcroppings.

I have three piles going in the Sunny Garden. They are sort of sorted according to shape and function. Sort of. It’s all a work in progress.

One is for massive flat boulders. Those work well as steps, and I’m thinking of trying to do the main floor of The Pocket with those. That will be tricky and require the strength of Samson before his haircut. But, hey, since haircuts are hard to come by in pandemic times, maybe we can work something out. We’ll see.

Another pile is for stones with some depth and a lovely flat side. Those are for the pathway.

The third pile is for retaining walls. Smaller stackables are for the plant beds, and bigger rocks are for The Pocket wall.

John advised me when I started this project that with stone work, you’ll end up collecting more rocks than you’ll use, usually at a rate of three to one. Every rock placed is selected for that spot, so it makes sense that some won’t be chosen.

I guess that means at some point I’ll be making my own pile of rocks somewhere in the woods, available for someone else looking to build something some day in the years to come.

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Brilliance of spring color


Mid-day sunlight heightens the colors of spring at Cedar Cross Retreat Center, including the vibrant red leaves of a Japanese maple, bright green hues of a poplar, the soft white of a dogwood blossom nestled next to the shades of the forest, and the emerald green logo of Cedar Cross in the arch leading to the goldfish pond. 





Coronavirus pandemic impacting
the ministry of Cedar Cross

With an acknowledgement of the gravity of the COVID-19 pandemic and the necessity of distancing measures, it is unfortunate that groups who had planned to visit the retreat center this spring are unable to come and enjoy the beautiful array of spring colors. 

Some of the groups have postponed their retreats, and others have had to cancel.

We are, though, welcoming individual retreatants and couples, who, of course, have no signs of the virus. Precautions being taken include disinfecting the Lodge and Heron’s Nest between retreatants and creating a buffer of 72 hours between visitors. 

The mission of Cedar Cross is to provide a place that is conducive for rest, reflection, and renewal. This mission is needed throughout the year, and the Mission Group, which oversees the ministry, discerned that the mission may be needed even more acutely during this pandemic. 

We realize that not everyone will want to make the drive into the woods of Franklin County. We do hope, though, that each of us will take time to be aware of the restorative beauty of God’s creation, wherever we live.

Contact us if you’d like to inquire about an individual or couple’s retreat.

         
Note from one of our founders

          The Cedar Cross Mission Group has a long standing commitment to treat part-time hourly workers with respect, fair pay, and encouraging support. An interesting byproduct of this commitment is emerging during a time when group retreats are all canceling with that total loss of income, or hopefully only postponing.

          Instead of moping about, and cutting hours to those on the margins already, we are tackling upgrades of grounds and buildings. Mostly using what we have, our freed up time is devoted to co-creating beauty.

          Since none of us is 35, we are paying our workers to help bring these projects to fruition. Win-Win. 

            — John Hilpert, a founder and now the forest steward of Cedar Cross


A Misty Morning at Cedar Cross
It’s a misty, moisty, morning at Cedar Cross.
Fern fronds are unfolding
Their spiraled, fragile fiddleheads
And intricately-laced spider webs,
Having caught the dawn’s remaining dew,
Glisten everywhere across the forest floor,
Refracting the sun’s early beams
Like myriad woodland luminaries.

Moss beds, verdant and vibrant,
Soften the many forest pathways
Leading me on with awe-filled expectation.
The sun, now diminishing all foggy impressions,
Lends its heat and light
To clarify and further define
All of the woods’ regenerating fauna.

I bask in the gracious stillness
And revel in how my eyes delight
At beholding anew with joy and wonder
Nature’s energies slowly awakening,
All while the sweet call of a titmouse
And hoarse croak of a distant crow
Provide their voices and place in the choir.

Spring sunshine is enlivening the
Glories and beauties of resurrection promise
And I pause in thankfulness.

                                       — Mac Hulslander, 4/7/2020






“It is a beautiful space.”

— words from a retreatant

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A Sunny Garden Journal



Dear Journeys readers,

The Sunny Garden is one of a few areas at Cedar Cross where the canopy is open, allowing hours of sunshine daily. It’s also located just behind the art studio, which is an essential part of my creative practice, particularly during retreat. 

Last autumn, I went to Cedar Cross for a week-long individual art retreat. After that, I began to ask my fellow mission-group members questions about the Sunny Garden. I wanted to know her story. 

We – the mission group – worked in mid-March to remove a blanket of leaves and wake her up for springtime. We pulled weeds, talked about reconstructing the fence, and brainstormed other aspects. I began to learn what was planted where. And I couldn’t help but notice her beautiful bones – short stone walls around daylily beds, handmade fencing, an arbor leading into the woods….

Two days later the World Health Organization declared COVID-19 a pandemic. In the days that followed, my business and most of my income as a jeweler began to dissolve right before my eyes. 

So I turned to the garden. 

I began keeping a journal about the garden and my experiences and thoughts as I engaged there. After talking with the mission group, we decided to share the story with all of you. We launched The Sunny Garden Journal on the Cedar Cross website. The blog is now my journal as I work with the garden. You can read the blog here: www.cedarcrossretreat.info/blog.

I have long been drawn to this garden, and the process is already a gift for me even without showy blooms or long summer afternoons there (yet). It’s likely that I would have adopted this garden anyway, but now it is incidentally happening as the coronavirus pandemic has taken the globe. Our story is still unfolding. 

Thanks for reading,
Ginger Allen

Mission of Cedar Cross: Rest, Reflection, and Renewal

We provide overnight and day-retreat space for small groups (up to 16 participants) and individual retreatants. Individuals, couples, and friends are invited to stay in Heron’s Nest, which is a two-bedroom cottage, or in one of the three suites of the Lodge. For more information, please contact the coordinator, Jimmy Allen, at 919-729-2586, or at cedarcrossregistrar@gmail.com. More information is available on our web site: cedarcrossretreat.info. We look forward to hosting you.
 

Mission Group members who oversee the ministry of Cedar Cross
Butch Grove, Vickie Grove, Mac Hulslander, Margaret Hilpert, John Hilpert, Lillie Jones, Ginger Allen, and Jimmy Allen

Specific roles at Cedar Cross
John Hilpert and Margaret Hilpert, founders and back-up hosts
Jimmy Allen, coordinator
Lillie Jones, gleaner
Rachel Allen, caretaker for indoor spaces
David Jerose, caretaker for outdoor spaces
Boomer Alston, caretaker for outdoor spaces
Lori Litton, bookkeeper
Linda Lamb, caterer

Covenant Community Church supports this retreat center through the Cedar Cross Mission Group.  We are a small ecumenical church offering a participatory form of worship that invites lively involvement by all members. We worship Sunday afternoons in Raleigh at the Community United Church of Christ (corner of Wade Avenue and Dixie Trail). Because of the pandemic, the community gathers virtually.

The mission group, which is a subset of the Covenant Community membership, typically meets monthly at the retreat center for a day of work, prayer, play, planning, and being with friends.

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We are grateful to all who support the ministry of Cedar Cross Retreat Center. If you believe in providing a place for people to experience rest, reflection, and renewal, please consider giving a donation.

You can give securely online at www.cedarcrossretreat.info/donate/ or click on the donate button below. Or send a check to Cedar Cross Retreat Center, 150 Cedar Cross Way, Louisburg, NC 27549. 
 

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The root of the problem

I think I’m on stone number 729 or something like that. By now I’ve learned how to select the stone for the spot and how to set it so it will be stable enough to walk on.

Slopes create a challenge, even if they’re slight. But what really creates an obstacle is root systems.

So when I encountered a huge root on a fairly short and steep slope, I realized both challenges concurrently would require special effort.

If a root is smaller than your average cucumber, I’ll cut it and remove it. If it’s larger than that, I work around it because I don’t want to risk serious injury to the life of the tree.

So far I’ve cut through hundreds of roots. And so far there have been only three that I had to work around. They were huge – perhaps the size of my arm. The latest one took a while to manage because of its location in a stepped area.

The solution was three huge and somewhat flat boulders.

I ended up with three wide boulders. The middle one has a huge root underneath on the left side. I went back out rock hunting to find a stone that was this size with a thin left side.

When I begin to dig, I don’t know what I’ll find. Most of the time I can make things work easily. Topsoil. Clay. Roots. I get to play with patterns and imagine several different options. But sometimes there’s a whopper root just waiting beneath the surface. And then there’s nothing to be done but cooperate.

I’m resisting the urge here to write a clever garden metaphor for life. It would go something like this:

Gardener digs a hole, as Human explores self within.

Gardener encounters an immovable obstacle, as Human remembers pain of trauma and loss.

Gardener examines obstacle, studies form, and evaluates options, as Human unpacks injury and works to bring healing where it was previously absent.

Gardener works in spite of and along with obstacle to accomplish desired result, as Human works in spite of and along with pain to move toward redemption.

Something like that.

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Change is slow, or is it?

I started this project just weeks ago with an almost new pair of leather gloves. Heavy duty ones. 100% pigskin.

This morning I noticed a hole in the left index finger. I can’t believe how quickly I’ve worn a hole in these gloves.

I’m not ready to ditch them yet, of course. They still have plenty of life left in them. They’ll help me lift and haul lots more rocks. But maybe they won’t last as long as I expected.

I read a prediction (or maybe it was a headline or a tweet, not sure) that because of COVID19, by 2070 our planet would still be habitable, people would have a renewed connection to nature, and the climate in general would be on its way back. This is a stark turn of course from the climate predictions pre-pandemic that in fifty years our planet would not be well.

Maybe nature is showing us how quickly she can respond when we make big changes. Suddenly, because we don’t want to die, we are staying home. Because of this we already have clear skies over China and Los Angeles, dolphins returning to the Venice canals, and me digging in the earth, opening myself to her again.

Thanks for reading. I‘m off to grab my gloves and dig for a while.

It only took three weeks to wear this hole.
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I’m making decisions every day.

At the entrance to the garden, right where I’m setting stones, there’s a rich and lovely loropetalum. It was a new species to me, so I did some research.

I learned that it’s in the witch hazel family, that it can grow to 15 feet, and that it is ideal in woodland gardens. Ours had several little offspring, including a few in the pathway where I’m digging and setting stones. What do I do with them? 

I had to make decisions.

Decisions are important in life, and we make lots of them all day every day. What to eat. What to say. How to approach a problem. How to express joy and gratitude. 

During this pandemic, the decisions I’m making on a daily basis have changed. As a creative entrepreneur, my daily decisions were around production methods and studio equipment and staffing and design choices and authentic marketing. I do have an online e-commerce business and the ability to work with custom clients remotely, so some of that is still active in my days. But since my wholesale business is “on hold” indefinitely, a major portion of that is gone from my daily experience, at least for now. 

Yet I’m still engaged in the process of making decisions. And today it was time to decide where to transplant the loropetalum. For me, decision-making is more of a collaboration. It begins with discernment and a time of sitting with the issue at hand, being open to where Spirit may lead. 

I’ve been doing this for a while with that loropetalum, knowing the day was coming when I’d reach that spot on the path and they’d have to go then. One went to the front of the studio, one to the north side of the studio, and one south of the fence line toward parking spot #3. I hope they like their new homes. 

There’s still one more baby loropetalum left to transplant, but it’s not in the pathway. So, we can make that decision later. 

https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=1M1IZ4RgQ2l6zvpottgDJWxfTZFPyXYmo
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Stones and rocks and boulders

I lost count of how many loads of rocks I gathered today. 

For some reason I was drawn to really large stones. This was particularly surprising considering that I was lifting them by myself. 

I started the day calling them rocks. 

By the end of the day they were all boulders. 

https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=1bjMd-l3dsnjtrRgjX9r4UCNomDRuMBRQ
The community around Cedar Cross is called Rocky Ford. This is why.
https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=1cbZ9Ws0BaiFU2CLTTz3_8Wxaw35FqFC-
Load number who knows.
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These are the small- and medium-sized ones.
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Reba says that’s enough rocks for one day.
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Order of operations

I spent a lot of time in the dirt in my 20s.

When we lived in a townhome, I had an extensive container garden. Having grown up in rural Warren County, gardening as a city dweller might was a new challenge. 

Then, in our first house, I planted everything everywhere I could. I dug by hand, laid pavers, planted herbs and tubers and perennials and annuals and vegetables and shrubs. (I don’t think I ever planted a tree.) I followed whatever attracted my attention and worked intuitively learning as I went along. Bliss. 

When we moved to our current home, I was mothering four little girls and working to build my creative practice into a business. I gave up my time in the dirt. But it was this season in my 30s when I learned to work smarter and think about how to do things most efficiently. Things in general. Batching processes, combining like tasks, planning the week, and so on. I was responsible for a lot, so it was necessary. I didn’t have the luxury of impulse or aimless wandering like I did when I was younger. Or, at least, that’s what I thought. 

So as I’m entering my 50s later this year, I would hope that I can (by now) integrate these different ways of working. I really want to start working on the fence. But I know that I need to stone The Pocket first  because I can’t really predict the footprint of the stone surface and retaining wall there until it’s happening. And the fence line needs to follow that footprint. And…

Since I can’t stone The Pocket until I know how much red clay I’m working with from the pathways, I need to finish those first. And I need more rocks. Lots more rocks. 

Maybe I can build a prototype fence post for the corner between the two little staircases on the studio porch? Just to see if my cedar-stack idea will work?

Maybe. But not until after you go get some more rocks. 

First things first. 

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One more day of digging? Sounds good

I decided to ride up to Cedar Cross with Jimmy this morning, unplanned.

After yesterday’s dig, I was hopeful that one more day of the same could get the meditation space ready to receive the red clay that I would be excavating from the paths. After all, that was the impetus, or one of them, for the digging. I was having dirt management problems over on the pathway.

I was right. Four loads yesterday, and four loads today. I ended the day with library rods in place to mark the lower retaining wall that will be needed, and perhaps a small elevated section that could be used as a low lotus resting place, or a footrest perhaps. (Probably not the footrest thing.)

We have a retreatant this week who’s often ready to talk. She lingers and shares. She has a broad smile, and she loves Reba. I’ll call her J, and I learned that her retreat experience opened her, and that she has much new life in store.

Interacting with others at a distance of six feet or more is an interesting experience. I notice that I’m seeing the entire person, reading body language and overall energy more than facial expressions or vocal inflection. I’m uncertain whether this creates a deeper understanding or not.

J called the meditation space a “pocket.”  Ding! That’s it. Now this meditation space has a name, at least for me. The Pocket. Meditation is like being in God’s pocket, safe and along for the ride.

https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=1IIqGZKNIZa3BWoQsx9LnUNLJ_QbZJ86o
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Rocks make a great gift


Margaret appeared uphill calling “Rocks for sale!”

“I’m buying” was my response.

Turns out she wasn’t selling rocks. She found lots of good ones as she was hunting just one for her garden. So she brought some for me.

She had trucked all the way to the northwest corner where she said there are completely untapped piles of rocks. I made a note to scout that spot next.

Here are some notes from the SG Sketchbook:

I moved four loads of topsoil from the meditation space to the new center bed, shoveled by hand. …. IDEA: Get a pull wagon! For rocking. With real tires.

https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=1j-qtUaCV8PBt7_EAwvREFtMVTTr9nL8C